And so New Life begins...

So I've arrived at my first destination 'New Life Farm', which as I have mentioned on my lives, was a massive synchronicity. It is absolutely stunning, breathtaking.

I arrived Sunday and it's now Tuesday. Sunday was wobbly but that was expected, yesterday I was having the time of my life signing karaoke. The weather is gorgeous, the food is incredible, the people are beautiful and more to come on all of this as this post really was more to touch base and to keep it real by sharing that... I am now, this morning, as I write this back in massive wobble.

My embodiment and somatic knowledge allowed for me to know that this would occur, and will continue to occur throughout this whole journey, but it still felt big this morning. It hit like a wave of emptiness, and then as I sat with that and comforted it, it turned to sadness. The homesickness of the familiar, despite my absolute growing intolerance of all things familiar before I came - we are funny creatures us humans aren't we! Now, within just a few days, all of a sudden I am missing all of those things, and I am certainly missing my Pepper pig (my dog).

And this morning a thought (and at the time it didn't feel dramatic in anyway) crept in... You are Homeless! and initially it coupled with that old perspective if being alone. Having sat with it for a a short while though I bring myself back to the Knowing that HomE is within us and right now I am Finding HomE and Free. I understand already why I haven't ever had the courage to do this before. I needed the somatic and therapeutic skills to hold myself through these times.

I remember back to uni, when I attempted to go to Coventry, it was roughly the same amount of days that this feeling hit (back then I had no resources to cope with those feelings) and within 24 hours I was back home feeling incredibly disappointed.

Not this time, I am braver and stronger and more well equipped.

So for now, I'm writing this as my blog which is to become my memoir of this whole journey.

The truth is... I have got this, this is wanted by me, I am free not alone, I am loved, I am supported and I am breaking change.

To all those on this path of courageous change, in whatever context, sending you so much strength and love 💖✨

Sam xxx

And p.s - the image is the view from toilet! Can you believe that! Can't get a better view than that!