Hello Beautiful Souls...
So the last blog was sharing a massive wobble I was having. Just casting my mind back to that day now and it seems a distant memory. I wrote my last blog right amidst that wobble, I was completely in it. I hadn't wanted to come out of it and then share as then you would have got the diluted version... so just know you got the full low, tears, overwhelm and everything. What you wouldn't have known until now though was that after that blog, I had a good cry, probably for about 10 minutes (although it did definitely feel like longer) because, you see, the blog/journalling had really allowed for me to connect with the feelings and for them to come up to release. Literally 2 hours later I was having the time of my life...and this is how quickly things can change when we allow ourselves to feel. I always remember a mentor once said to me, e-motion is energy in motion - and we only struggle emotionally when that energy is held, surpressed or for whatever reason, not in motion.
So after my cry, I had gone up to wash out some giant water containers full of algae blooms which took my back to a film I watched years ago called 'The Blob'. I enjoyed so much getting dirty and being involved, even pulling out these huge slimy films with bare hands! I was in good company too, I must say. There is a lot of good company here, but more to come on that.
I guess the purpose of sharing this is to show what a turnaround can occur within a 24 hour space, and also just to remind those who need it that when we make big changes, we will feel big feelings...we must allow ourselves the time to land both in the external and within ourselves, otherwise we never truly get to know whether or not it is for us. I see now how many times in the past I have made a decision, and seen it through only to experience the wobble and then make that mean I have made the wrong decision.
I reckon it takes around 5-7 days for this process to happen, perhaps longer for some and context dependant. It is also vitally important we have resources, whether that be therapeutic strategies, coaches, good friends (I am blessed to have all of these at this stage on my journey and that means you can too), to help us make our way through the wobbles and the lows.
Sending Love and WONDER,
Sam
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