So this is one of the shortest but funniest chapters of my 365 figuring out life live journey.
This was another example of a moment when you meet another person and you just Know you are Soul Family. You can feel the Energy. Everything feels easy and it kinda feels like being tickled from the inside out - but it's an energy you just can't describe.
So this meeting happened during my time in Tirana in Albania. I had already spoken with the owner of the hostel and we agreed I wasn't staying, but as he was giving me a free night stay I said I would do a bit of volunteering that day anyway so I got paired with a couple of really nice girls. As part of our volunteering tasks we got given jobs that we could have easily done in 2 hours...but the only thing was we had 5 hours to fill...
Sara was one of the girls I had been paired with. For the morning, we had just been general chatting and it was already clear we were on a very similar wavelength. She didn't mix up her words, she didn't fluff things up, she just said things as they were and that's a quality I really like in people. For me, I feel a felt sense of safety around people who you know just speak their mind non aggressively, it makes things easy, no game playing, no agendas and it's like your nervous system just goes 'yeah - were good here'.
I think it was whilst we were on the first floor landing, we had been taken up and told that we needed to go through the towel and bedding cupboard to refold everything to make it tidier. As we were being shown me and Sara both immediately did an internal eye roll (it takes one to know one!) You see, the cupboard was in all honesty absolutely fine, it wasn't a mess, it was fine. So the ponly thing that could be decuded from this was that this was clearly one of those jobs that gets made up just for the sake of being able to given someone something to do.
So, as soon as the head volunteer showing us had gone downstairs, Sara just looked over and her face screwed up and even thinking about this makes me laugh...she said 'but whhhhyyyyyyy'. It was a mixture between a childlike 'it's not fair' and a teenage 'why the f*** have I got to do this'. Knowing exactly what she was feeling I just burst out laughing. Then she began her rant of how she really didn't mind doing work, not at all, but she just couldn't understand why someone would get you to do something so menial and pointless just for the sake of filling time. Yes we were supposed to do 5 hours, but her argument was that if there wasn't anything meaningful for us to do, why get us to do things like this. Now, I would struggle to describe her mannerisms as she was saying all of this but hopefully you can build a picture in your head, but basically the funniest ever!
We proceeded to pull out the closet of laundry into a big pile and start to fold, but we were like stroppy teenagers whilst simultaneously laughing our heads of as we were moaning and just howling at what a completely pointless task this was. I realised that this was one of the precious moments in life, doing something that could have been completely soulless and it becoming one of the most hilarious moments because it was being shared with the right energy. This really is the getting to the GOOD in Life, seeing and choosing the JOY in the moment.
It didn't end here though. A short while later, a small scruffy looking guy came to talk to us. he looked like a well worn traveller. The other two girls started to act a bit differently but I hadn't picked up on this straight away. This guy asked what we were doing, he asked my name and then he asked us all if we were okay. Still in a fit of hysteria I made the joke that 'we were living the dream'. Now, fortunately for me, this guy's English wasn't great so he likely didn't pick up on the tone of this. After a few more minutes chatting he set off down the stairs and it was at this point the realisation dropped . I looked at Sara and stated 'he is one of the owners isn't he'. Sara burst out laughing 'yep'. And then we all just laughed. Funny isn't it, that I'm usually quite switched on but I didn't register that he was the owner at all at this moment. Then I reflected, I likely would have acted differently had I have known that...and again 'but why?'. Maybe out of 'respect', maybe our of that conditioning to respond to an person in authority in a certain way, all sorts of reflection that are beyond what I have space for here really but it's interesting isn't it; our perspective of hierarchies we have here within society that create this illusion of 'above and below' and so forth. At the end of the day we are all human, we are all equal and yet we have so much conditioning around societal structure and how we should behave in the presence of certain others.
For me, I feel this is definitely an important part of life and our Soul journey; figruing it all out. A learning to be completely free to be, to be in your truth, to show up as authentically you, to feel such a strong sense of self that you show up as the true you in every situation without any worry of the 'position' of the person you communicate with. I love it when some people use there status to command a certain 'respect' from others, it's actually laughable to me now, now that I am well on my journey to self knowing and understanding how our systems work. Equally, I know in the past I have flailed my degree letters, hiding behind them praying they would show me as worthy in the eyes of others. All to mask the feelings of inferiority inside, a void that I learnt no amount of letters or titles would ever fill.
This was a seemingly small 24 hours in my journey, but every time I recall this I smile and can feel the hysterical laughter of that day and it is a special moment that I will never forget. It gives me a Soul glow.
The take away from this chapter ... Of course we need those that challenge us and help us grow, but do make sure that you Allow yourself to find your Sara's in life and laugh. I remember saying to her lovingly that she had a very childlike energy, it really was beautiful, and if I remember correctly she said something about feeling she was here to remind people not to take life so seriously. This is what I remember thinking, she had helped me to reconnect to that child like part of me, the part we are told by society not to be, the part that embraces the fun, the play the wonder of life and I remember setting the INTENTION with God to bring me more of this.
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